I wish I could explain why I sometimes do stupid things. I decided not to do healthkicker and get a regular xanga...why you ask? Well I thought that I shouldn't just focus on my weight and so I got a xanga to write about not just my weight, but my life such as photography, being married etc.... well soon that just turned into writing about everything BUT weight. At least now I know why....

I was in DENIAL ABOUT EVERYTHING. I weight more than I have in a long time. I am just about the same weight as when I was in college...I"m not quite as fat but I am too close for comfort.

What the heck was I thinking???????? I can try to ignore my weight by not taking pictures, by wearing bigger clothes, not stepping on that dreaded scale...but it won't change how I look and feel....which is gross and huge. I am DONE! D.O.N.E!

I can't do this anymore. I have to accountable, I let myself get like this, I didn't exercise, I ate like a pig. ME! I think I finally opened up my eyes.

I have started for the past few days my new regimine of eating better and exercising. I actually feel better, now I must continue.

Breakfast

I have major issues sleeping. I can't stand it!!! If Tony isn't right by me I just can't sleep at all.....it is so annoying. I used to be able to sleep alone all of the time before, infact I preferred it. Now if Tony is at practice or doing homework late, I just can't seem to catch some z's.....ohhhhhhhhhhh the agony.

I didn't get to work out again...ugggggggggggggg. I really wanted to but time just flew on by. Today I will def get a chance to, even if I am tired as all heck.

Food for Jan 22, 2009

Breakfast: Oatmeal :)

Snack: an apple

Lunch: Subway club sandwich with baked chips

Water for Jan 22, 2009

4 glasses so far yo

Exercise for Jan 22, 2009

Nada but soon!!

Motivation

Sorry for the hiatis. There was a lot of stuff going on and I didn't get a chance to even go on the internet! I missed blogging though!!! Thanks so much for the kind words my friends!

Updates: My cousin is doing a little better, she is still recovering from her surgery and she is still upset, but she is getting better everyday. I spent a day with her over the weekend and we watched cartoons all day :)

Unfortunatly I didn't get to work out at all this weekend, that kind of bums me out but I am back on the ball now. There was just too much going on and I didn't get a chance too, but I will continue on!

I can't really write much right now, I am at work and my bosses are everywhere, so ta ta for now!

Food for Jan 20, 2009

Breakfast: Ham and cheese croissant 300 calories

Lunch: Mcdonalds kids meal chicken nuggets 500 calories

Snack: Sweet tarts 200 calories

Dinner: Chicken soup- 400 calories

Total calories- 1400

Exercise for Jan 20, 2009

booo I didn't get to exercise, but I sure cleaned the hell out of my apartment

Water for Jan 20, 2009

8 glasses